Poem - 60 years of ADHD overwhelm

I want I want I want
Be patient
Think think think
Talk talk talk
Can’t verbally organize-thoughts in real time
Can’t hold verbal organized-thoughts in real time
Why bother why bother why bother
Don’t give up don’t give up don’t give up
It’s probably too late late late.
It’s going to be too late late late.
I want want want
Be patient
Maybe I just think I want what I want
How can you not know what you want before you want it. How can you know what you want before you do it?
Others walk away
I walk away from myself
An internal picture of existing, evolving and dreamed of paintings (collections of thoughts) slowly fades as so do I.
Repeat
60 years of ADHD overwhelm